There's no place like home, there's no place like home.
The amount of homesickness i feel right now..
ugh.
It's like. WHAT AM I DOING HERE.
funny story actually.
Monday morning rolls in. Ugh another monday. School is so lame. I get out of bed and i am like.. hmm.. i dont feel to good. Continue to shower and get ready bike down the the train station and catch the bus. Same thing i do every day. get to school. Still am not feeling good.
So i get through i believe it was the first 2 classes sitting. not focused. the usual.
and then all of a sudden. as i awoke from my slumber.
It hit me.
I needed an exit strategy ASAP.
So I did what any normal human being would do in this circumstance.
I bolted out of the class. Ran down the stairs and by this point it was almost to late. Seeing some windows close by i thought about it for a second until i saw the library. Just then it came up from my stomach past my lungs and into my mouth. As i held it in with my jacket sleeve i ran into the library to find a VERY confused librarian. Who. Had no idea what i was doing. I searched desperately until. I found it.
The waste paper basket. After about 2 good hurls. I was finished throwing up. As i sat on the ground shaking, the librarian had disappeared and all that was left was a mortified me, and all the other students in the library... which is actually quite a lot.
I felt much better though... well.. for the day.
the last 2 days i have felt like shit. not to mention my homesickness is REALLY bad right now.
I just need one really good weekend to pick me back up
excited for my birthday more then ever right now.
Sarah and I have an awesome plan.
On my actual birthday i will sleep at her house / vice versa.. And then either one of us will go to each others school together. and do nothing all day. And then we will either stay at the other persons house the next night... depending on the dates or head to the matterhorn together
I am so excited. I my mind is thinking about 2 things. Missing home and My birthday.
Other then that today i slept in / still recouping.. and by the time i would have gotten to school i woul have had one 45 minute class left. So i didn't go. but i also only had music class and science.
I feel like. ugh. I duhno like a bad kid or something. Like ever since i got my talking to about missing those couple of classes i feel shitty. All i can think about is this would NEVER happen at home. I could be at home where i am not getting yelled at in my own country in my own house doing my own thing and no one would say anything about it. Even when i was IN school and i had a diploma to get No one breathed down my neck about attendance. Yes i know that even though i am graduated i gotta go to school here. But it has never on purpose. I either sleep in or miss my train. and even then it has only been like 4 ish classes. in the morning. I don't think i should get in trouble for that. Not to mention EVERY OTHER exchange student here treats school like a joke. when they miss they dont get in trouble. And i wish that when they had that problem with me they would have come to me first. Not my councilor then my host family and THEN me. It makes it soo much worse then it really is. it actually makes me angry how unnecessary it all was. again, other exchange kids NEVER go to school.
ugh.
stressssssssed out.
i just want to be 18. So i do not ever have to worry about ID's and getting in anywhere ever again.
20 more days.
i can assure you it is going to go by very slowly for me.
UGHHH.
hope this weekend is amazing.
will update you either way
love you mom&dad
... i love my friends.
posted by Jerrie Ambrus @ 10:54 AM
12 Comments:
It will always seem way worse when you are sick AND you are not at home sweetie! That is when you put your most comfy jammies on after a nice hot shower, then you hug little "George" and squeeze tightly the bag of beads you got from ALL your friends and listen to your favorite music! We are ALL there with you in some way....whether in one of your songs your listening to...or one of the photos that make you remember the tons of laughter with your good friends...we are there in the movies you watch that make you think of certain people in your life....we ARE always there...all around you! This time is so very short and when you arrive home...you will surely say...OMG..that went by sooo fast! Trust me....the roller coaster of emotions and feelings are all apart of being away! And you are doing an AWESOME JOB of being you, being honest and being the remarkable woman who was "chosen" to receive this GOLDEN TICKET to this once in a lifetime adventure!
I LOVE YOU & I WILL NEVER HAVE THE WORDS TO TELL YOU JUST HOW MUCH I MISS YOU!
Hey Sunshine, I'm so sorry you're sick. I wish very badly that I could give you a big hug and take you out for chicken fingers and listen to your stories and compliment your shoes. But know that I think of you so often throughout each day and I am sending you strong, positive, grounding energy. I am holding your hand. And squeezing. I love you. Carrie
Hi: Sorry you are sick and also homesick, just remember this too shall pass. Everyone, in one way or another has been through what you are going through so we share a common bond in that way. Twenty days to you must seem like a lifetime but at my age twenty days pass too swiftly. Take care of yourself and I am sending a hug your way, do you feel it? Love you nana
Hi Jerrie: I hope that today is a better day for you. You have been in my thoughts and prayers since I read your blog, I know that your friends and family all love you so much and what a gift you have to be surrounded by so much love. Try to enjoy the day and I can only hope that you are feeling better. Love you, nana.
Hey my dear.
don't worry about the home sickness... it will pass.
If you came home, all you would want was a day.. and then you would be itching to go back!
Just think of how much we love you when you feel sad and know how much we want you to enjoy your time away! And when you come back we will welcome you (of Course) with open open open arms!
Love you
miss you!
Courtney
ps. tanner wants you to message him back i think?
p.p.s. that is a lovely photo you have of me there =O
I hope the homesickness has passed. Brandy had a few days of that last week, but now says she doesn't want to come home - too much to experience yet.
Hope you have a very happy birthday Jerri. Have one for me on your birthday
Take Care
Deb
Jerrie,
Hi! Sounds like you are in down in the dumps? The best way to make time fly is to get up everyday and find something to do. I loved to go fishing with PAPA and if I could have gone angling with him for a year straight I know that 365 days would have flown by! I know it must be hard to be so far away from your friends & family but be for you know it, you will be on a plane back home. Already, your birthday is near and then Christmas will pass, then the New Year. When you get to 2009, the days will fly by! You must admit now, there's NO PLACE LIKE HOME!
The weather here has been, SPECTACULAR! I have yet to put on my gloves & tuque for work(job#1). I know this nice climate will come to an end but I'm loving every warm day we get.
Your Mom & Dad drove up to Cochrane for the day and your Dad found a new Chinese buffet. He was snapping crab legs, devouring shrimp, gulping squid etc. so I think he LOVED what they had to offer. For me, I still hold off on my graving for Chinese food, for Shanghai. Do the Swiss have any Chinese restaurants? If yes, do they compare?
Did you laugh at the pictures of Ethan as, SHREK? I heard you were interacting with him via your computer. I wish I was there to witness that transaction. Other than myself, I have never seen a person worship candy(nandy as Ethan would say)like the little fellow does. We have to take him to the Nanton Candy Store one day, that would be hilarious!
In closing, remember to wake up everyday and make the BEST of each day. The more you have FUN the quicker the time will go by. I think there is a country/western song in that paragraph but carry on. I know you are missing everyone but just remember we are in the same boat, in that we MISS YOU!
LOVE, Uncle Kenny(XOXO)
sorry to hear you are feeling homesick. It will pass. That is crazy that you threw up at school and everyone was watching I would be so emotionally drained after that. One German girl here threw up out of a bus. That is awesome you get to see the Matterhorn I have only been on the Disneyland ride.
Hey Jerrie!
This is Courtney's sister! So I definitely missed you this year during Fall Production. You were so much fun to be in productions with. And I took your advice and made the most of the part I was casted in. Thanks again for that advice!! Hopefully spring work will go over better than it did last year for me. (Better would be actually getting to perform and not having my play be cancelled.) Shouldn't be too hard to top that. :P
Hi...Jerrie? Leanne? Random friend of Jer's? Jerrie! I haven't heard from you in a long time. Could someone just let me know she is well? Thank you.
Dear Carrie:
I too was worried!! You are not the only one!But I did get a quick email today, after a looooong week of nothing!! Apparently her internet isn't working. I am assuming that she communicated the email I got from a friend of hers. So all is well (I guess).
She owes us all a HUGE BLOG! WITH PHOTOS!!!!!
Jerrie, it's been over 2 weeks!
*sad face*
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