Its been a while.
So,after a chat with my mother... i realized it has been a while since i blogged... so here goes
The weekend was pretty chill. It was my host moms 50th birthday so they had this thing called an "open house" where pretty much anyone was welcome to give her birthday wishes. So when i woke up i was put to work helping make sandwiches. After that i chilled with aley in the Basement and then eventually when people started to arrive i put on presentable clothes. Somehow i do not think Mac's sweat pants would have gone over so well...
So anyways.. there is like a million people in the house and all the animals are running around and it was really really hectic!.
the day passed quickly and Aley told me to be ready at 8 because we were going out. So i get ready and we head over to the same place we went for the Boy (kreis?) birthday. When we arrived there was not that many people there and they were all just sitting around smoking hooka. OOOh i forgot. On the way there you have to take a bus and then (like i probably mentioned before) it is a 20 minute walk. so the girls got the boys to come get us in there moped things. you can have 3 people on one and of course i get the scariest spot. this boy has like no room and i am sitting the farthest on the back. i was about 2 inches literally from falling off... My fingers were nailed to that boys jacket... my fingers even hurt after because i held on so tight... dont worry mom and dad.. i was safer on the way back home and put myself second on.
Anyways. that was a fun kind of chill night. we were pretty much the only girls there. And the boys are really nice. It kind of reminded me of a chill night at home with my friends. Minus the hooka. just sitting around.. probably at spencers, draydens, or my house just sitting around talking drinking, being mellow.
i am having a lot of moments here..
moments being... i am taking back to weird moments in my life. a lot of them are childhood.. and a lot or of memories that i have not thought about in a VERY long time. memories that i think i just pushed to the side.
like i will be crossing the street and all of a sudden i am taking right back to when i was little in my old house in the backyard with the blow up pool playing with my barbies.
Or i will slunk into "highschool" memories. And it is just really really weird.
Its like... i feel like i have somehow lost my childhood.. like i forget it or something. and now it is coming back to me.. i know i sound like a crazy person.. but its like. your childhood. how often do you just sit back and relive those days.
like when i was in kindergarten.. this is one i had today. When my brother and sister would be at school and i would be watching tv in my old living room.
like i don't know what is triggering these... but they just spurt into my memory.
and like, friendships that i have forgotten.... or forced myself to. Its like.. all of a sudden.. things that happened just dont matter anymore.
some of the things that were / are? a big deal.. i cant even remember what they were about. ( i am sorry if this does not make ANY sense) but its like, none of it matters anymore. Either you love people. or you dont. And i know i am the QUEEN of grudges. so i sound so hypocritical.
GAH THIS IS ANNOYING. it is all just sitting in my brain and i am trying to type it to make sense for you... but then it is more or less for me. but agh. anyways.
Its like. ok. Reasons why you dont communicate with certain people anymore. I cant even remember some of the reasons. And i cannot remember even what was said. But i know how certain people made me feel. and that is really what sticks with you. ya know?
anyways. these memories. I have no idea what is bringing them on.. so if you have an idea.. let me know!
so after friday we get ready to go to some club in St. Gallen and then we change our minds to go to Halley Galley... they were suppose to have a foam party.. after about an hour of waiting for trains etc.. we get there and it is closed! i was so bummed! it was to late to go anywhere else.. so we ended up just waiting for the next train and going home.. which was kind of good because i was really tired. and then today in school we started special project week before holidays. so that means each class has a different thing. some classes get to do cooking, others are in england or france... but nope. our class has to work on ecology, and my group is working on fishes.. which normally i would be like hey sweet. But its like. soooooooo boring. today we went and saw how they made drinking water.. and when you don't understand a word that is being said... it gets very long.
not to mention the guy giving us the tour had something wrong with his finger and it totally looked like a wiener...
so i couldn't stop staring. we all noticed it.. and then i think he might have realized and got self conscious... so now i feel bad. but it looked identical to a wiener!
anyways.
i dont really know if i have anything else to say. i am talking to my brooski on skype so i am distracted now.
love you mom&dad
posted by Jerrie Ambrus @ 12:45 PM
7 Comments:
Some call that falling back into childhood memories "calling back your spirit" as in where pieces of you that got away have a chance to come back to the whole. I think that's interesting if you look at it from perspectives of your life. I love you and it was so nice to hear from you today. Love Carrie
Flashes to memories of moments!
Moments to stir emotions!
Emotions to feel for only a flash of a moment
that you're...... HOME!
That's MY analysis of what I think is happening! How's that?
I am sooo glad that you blogged! Many eyes will be relieved to read.. few will comment!...this too is true!
Love you baby bear!
MOM
XX00
don't take so long between blogs!
Jerrie I was so glad to finally get a blog from, was beginning to think that you forgot about us that are so interested in hearing from you. It sounds like you have a nice family that you are living with and I love your bedroom. Are you getting used to the parrot?. I hope so. It is turning cold here, certainly don't look forward to it. Take care of yourself. Love u, nana.
I always hate when I get caught staring at physical deformation too. Anywhere with a hookah is awesome.
Hey Jerriee!! Me again lol!!
I was learning in psychology today that like.. anything can 'trigger' a memory.
A smell, a sound, a feeling of excitement or dissapointment, a sight like a sweater or a building, being in a certain place doing a certain thing (like sitting on the couch you said) sometimes it's the way you word something awkwardly that reminds you of something you said years ago that you may have thought about a lot in the past. It can be done conciously or subconciously lol
Whatever the cause, i bet it's wicked nice and 'homey', and the some of these answers from everybody give you some sort of insight haha!!
Hope you're having fun and got your frikken straightener fixed lady!
Hi Sweety...Very interesting blog...please stay off the mopeds, they are DANGEROUS!!! I had to laugh out loud at the weiner finger guy. I wonder if he has a dog? Do you think that he's gone to pet his dog and he gets bit on the fingers by accident? Poor dog must be totally confused!...I think you'll appreciate this one...This guy walks past a pet store every day, on his way to work. One day the shop owner lets the parrot go outside and sit on his perch. As the guy walks by, the parrot says "hey fatso, I hope you die!!". This goes on for a week and the guy gets so P.O.ed that he goes into the pet-store and tells the owner if that bird insults him one more time he is sueing him and killing the bird. The next day the guy walks by and eyeballs the parrot, then he slows down and stops. The parrot doesn't say a word. "WELL???" says the guy to the parrot. The parrot looks him right in the eye and says "YOU KNOW!!!"...hahahahahahahahaha tell that one to the parrot where you are staying, he might back off.
take care sweety...stay warm
love you...dad
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