Jerrie's Travels

and it is building up inside me.

i want. to touch. the cows.

They mock me all day. Out there on the grass. watching me. taunting me. dinging there cute little bells. one day soon i will be able to write on here and tell you i have accomplished my goal of touching one.

Tomorrow is my first rotary meeting in the forest and it is suppose to rain. Not sure how well that will turn over.

When i close my eyes i can picture myself at home. I feel like i can just walk down the street to go home. Which is pretty odd. Everyone is always saying I hate Lethbridge it sucks here bla bla bla. And i will admit i am the first offender... But now. actually miss "Deathbridge" It is familiar. It has all my family and friends. It has home. One of the things i am most excited for when i get home is to walk into my house and breathe in and smell my own house with my own house scent.

It's weird be an exchange kid. Sometimes you look out the window and you are like "holy shit. this is awesome. I am actually here doing this and this year is going to be the best yet!" and other times you look out the window and think "i just wish for a minute i was back at home. with people that i know and love speaking my own language. kicking back completely relaxed"

Everyone here is so romantic. In bern there were couples everywhere kissing and holding hands.

It is funny, how i thought that when i fled the country i would just leave all my baggage (metaphorically speaking) behind and just whisk off into this new life.

i was wrong. very very wrong.

Considering that. I do not have any friends here yet to talk to and confide in.. i am stuck thinking. thinking all the time. about everything. And coming from a person that is already an over thinker.. this is not so good.  

so i hope the next week goes by pretty quick so i can meet these new kids and get my mind off of certain subjects.

People here are SO friendly. i feel like i am waving and saying hi to the entire world when i am just walking around the block. So that is good. I am still staring at the unused trampoline outside.. if some kids don't play on it soon i am going to go have a bounce.  

have the things i say on here i cant remember if i just thought about them lots or i have already written them.. so if i repeat myself. i am sorry.

LOVE YOU MOM AND DAD